Get OVER it!

So I would love to think that I am NOT one of those people who wants everything name brand, and only likes the best of everything, not giving anything else a chance. I love to buy cute clothes, but I love it more when they are on sale! I love to cook, but I SO shop all wholesale and farmers markets and whatnot. And I am always very happy with what I have. Then I decide to be foolish about something....a vacuum. I wanted a Dyson Animal soooo bad. I used to spend forever searching Internet sites to try and find one on sale. Then my old vac finally bit the dust...so it was time for a new one. We trudged off to Target and as I gazed longingly at the Dyson in all its purple and silver glory, I chose the Bissell, and off we went. When I got home I was still somewhat disappointed about this, then I put it together and used my new piece of equipment. And truth be told? I love it. It did a great job, it is easy to clean (bagless) and for now, for this time in our lives it was the perfect choice.


But it did have me thinking, how could I be so obsessed with this almost $600 vacuum...when there are WAY more important things happening all around me! So with that I learned that I need to GET OVER IT and show some love to my bissell!!! :):)

Dresses and flip flops...

It must be spring, because thats what I have been wearing! I am loving forever 21 and old navy lately...very cute stuff for very little deniro!


Dave and I have been keeping busy, but a good busy, we are both loving life right now! We are both looking forward to our fav restaurant opening in a couple weeks, Bridge's is an outdoor restaurant right on the water with good drinks, great food, and an awesome atmosphere, definitely go check it out if you find yourself in Michigan City! (I dont know why anyone would "find" themselves in Michigan City...) But if you do, look around and you may see Dave and I sipping margaritas and snacking on Humus! MMMM! :)



TWO MORE WEEKS...until something I can't talk about on here. :) Soon. Soon I can tell you. :)

Broken.

My heart is heavy on this day that used to be so happy. I was 20 when my mom died. I felt completely cheated, that was almost 3 years ago...and I still feel that way. I thank God for the time that we all had with here...however I am so painfully angry that we didn't have longer. Life was supposed to different. My wedding was supposed to be the most exciting time thus far in my life, she should have been there when I get my engagement ring from Dave, she should have been there to pick out my wedding dress with me...to tell me "now honey, THAT looks beautiful", she should have been with me when I picked out the cake and she should have been there to do my hair the day of the wedding. My mom should have been there when Linds had a question about what to do next...or when she built her beautiful house. She should be there when we have our babies, when we decorate nurseries....she should be there when we have a question about our crying babies at 3 am. She should be HERE.





But she isnt. She is gone. I found that beautiful dress with my wonderful Aunt, I walked down the aisle without her standing there. Lindsay built her house and asked her questions with my amateur advice. We will have children and tell stories and let them watch videos of their Grama, we will go on with our our lives, and we will always wonder what could have been. My heart is breaking today on what would have been her 53rd birthday...



I hurt for my dad who lost the love of his life, his companion of almost 30 years. I hurt for my Aunt who lost her twin, her other half. I hurt for my sister who is so far away from us and needs mom. I hurt for everyone who met her, knew her and lost her. I hurt for myself, for the memories that were yet to be made, for the advice I wont get, I hurt for the part of me that I lost when mom left this world...



Happy Birthday mom...I love you deeply and completely, I miss you with my whole heart.

WOO HOO!!!

Yep, thats how I feel today! (such a dork). But really, since I have started these spinning classs (I attended THREE this week) I feel like a different person, obviously my body has not changed much but I feel so much better! I have more energy, I feel stronger, and I am just generally happier! Infact here is a picture of me:

Yeah right! Maybe someday....but right now, I feel more like this:

I am sorry but this was just too funny!!! Anyways, the workouts will continue and hopefully I will start seeing changes!

Ready to go!!

Not a whole lot to update, I am going to the gym tonight, but I don't have class....YEAH!!! Anyways, today seems to be hurrying by which is a good thing, I am contemplating what I will make for dinner. I am thinking I will try to convince Dave that he wants pasta...mostly because I want to try the new sauce that he bought. Later this week I plan to make Gorgonzola stuffed meatballs...yeah it's a Rachel Ray recipe!

So today is a good day! My wonderful husband bought me some goodies, a pink Adidas gym bag...

And a new water bottle...

And most importantly THIS, to save me from painful butt bruising :)

YAY!!! I am ready for spin class....yeah I am a nerd...so what?

That was fun.

Notice the sarcasm...

I went to my very first spin class tonight! It was.....painful. I got probably the best workout I have had in years, but man it will take some getting used to! I felt completely exhausted and I think every muscle in my body was quivering when I was done, but really, I felt good! I think I worked muscles that I didn't even know I had!! When I got into the class everyone was pulling out these little gel seats and I was thinking *why do they need those...these seats look okay.* WRONG answer, by about minute 4 I was pretty sure my rear was literally going to just break. Sooo I will be hauling my sore butt to Walmart tomorrow and purchasing what I like to refer to as an "ass aid".


Not much else to report, I am sitting here watching Dave and his brother Daniel play hockey (video game...not real life) *SO exciting...* :) I kid because I love!!

Yum-o!

That was my Rachel Ray impression..good no? Anyways, I made a cake for Dave last night and it looked too good to not take a picture soooo...

Sorry the quality is so bad...thats what I get for using my camera phone! Anyways, its a double layer choc-choc cake with toasted coconut on top! Dave seemed to like it so...success!!

Dad left for Austin this morning on the Amtrak train, I am glad he is going to get away for a few days. After Melv died...well, I just think it was hardest on him. I often wonder how he is really doing with everything, I mean, he always seems so incredibly strong, but I see the hurt in his eyes...we have lost a lot in these last couple years. And he went from having his wife, one of his daughters, and his dog, in one house....to just him, in about 3 years. Thats a lot. Anyways, he is a really amazing man and I hope he finds...whatever his heart is looking for.